So tired.

Warning: I am a grumpy pregnant lady. 

I. am. so. tired. 

I am working a ton. I haven't had a complete day off since Oct 18 and wont have one off until Nov 8. That is 21 days. I am on my feet. A LOT. Next month I only have 5 days off. The entire month. I work 3/5 weekends. I'm getting to that uncomfortable stage much earlier than I remember with my first pregnancy. I wake up once a night due to reflux, gagging and wanting to vomit. It hurts to carry Isaiah for more than 3 minutes. I am exhausted but can't fall asleep. I suffer from early satiety. (I get full after eating 4-5 bites of food which is frustrating because of course I'm hungry an hour later.) The house is a hot mess. We have our old queen mattress and box spring stacked up against a wall in our bedroom. We have dirty dishes pilled up in our kitchen sink which is a big pet peeve of mine but I am too tired to do anything about it. I haven't washed our sheets or Isaiah's sheets in an embarrassingly long time. We have 2 hampers full of clothes that need to be folded and 3-4 loads of laundry that need to be done. Michael starts his work at 7am which means having to get Isaiah up and ready for school by myself most days. Unless I am post-call then Michael has to wake him up and take him at the butt crack of dawn. We set up Isaiah's big boy bed but the guard rail I bought won't work with it. Planning on using a giant pool noodle as a bumper guard. It's supposed to rain on Halloween, and I really want to see Isaiah in his Halloween costume. My eyebrows are out of control, and I am in desperate need of a massage and pedicure. Oh what I wouldn't do to have a giant glass of red wine!! 

Snuggle time is still my favorite though. 

Here's a sneak peak of Isaiah's big boy bed without the bumper. 

Happy early Halloween! (This is not his costume.)

Let the nesting begin.

I am 31 weeks along, and I think it's really starting to hit me that we are going to be taking home a baby girl soon, God willing. This past weekend, I enjoyed my joint baby shower with friends. We got so many cute baby girl clothes! It got the wheels turning in my head about all of the things we need to get done before she gets here. (This is list is mainly for me not the 2 people who read this blog)

- set up Isaiah's big boy room: buy twin bed frame (check), buy twin mattress, buy dresser for Isaiah's clothes (check), whitewash said dresser (Michael wants to do this), get twin comforter dry cleaned, twin bedding set (check), get decor for big boy room, buy hamper

- set up baby girl nursery: buy girlie crib sheets, sort through Isaiah's clothes and wash gender neutral ones, buy new nipples for baby bottles, wash baby bottles, see if I need new pump parts, wash bouncy chair, swing and rock n play and car seat fabrics, wash baby girl clothes, decor?

- office/guest room: move full size bed in there, get full bed frame, clean out closet, donate printers, get some storage drawers, move bookcase out, move recliner out

-our room: find a place to put a changing pad or get a cheap changing table, buy king bedding, move queen bed frame into garage (check), donate mattress

It's not that much stuff but for some reason I just want it all done now. We really need to move Isaiah into his big boy room soon so the transition isn't so hard for him. 

Isaiah has no idea what's coming! He's such a good, sweet boy. I'm trying to soak up the last couple of months of him being an only child. He's so used to being the center of attention and is so attached to me. I'm sure it will be hard for both of us to adjust to me having to divide my time and attention. For now I am enjoying the hugs and kisses, mommy & Zae time at the park and of course snuggly naps. 

Upgrade

So I finally bought my first car. While I really liked the Infiniti JX, I went with the more affordable Toyota Highlander. We bought it on the last day of the month which supposedly is when dealers are the most desperate to sell. I think we got a pretty good deal. Michael did most of the negotiating. It was around lunch time, and I was hungry and grumpy and just wanted to buy it and get out of there OR come back after eating. The process took a long time but in the end I think we made a good purchase. 

The next day we also upgraded our bed and finally got a king size tempur-pedi bed with some nice keep-cool-gel pillows and a grey tufted headboard set. We love our new bed!

So those are our upgrades for the month. No more big purchase for a while. Gotta hold off on my diamond earrings and nice purse I guess! 

Let's talk about money

It's a subject that we don't like to talk about. It's not polite talk about how much money you make or ask someone else about how much they make. I think we assume that our family and friends make enough to live comfortably but really have no idea what we actually do for a living on a day to day basis or how much income that earns us. 

Before medical school I was very money conscious. I always paid credit cards off every month and only took out what I needed for student loans. As I went through medical school, I was sick of living like a college student. While other friends were working, and I assumed making pretty decent incomes, I was spending hours a day in class then many more hours studying in the library. I thought I deserved certain extras, like nice beach vacations or the occasional pair of shoes, ect. I didn't mind taking out more loans to do this. I wasn't living extravagantly by any means but maybe ended up with little bit more student loans than I should have. I don't regret taking those vacations or splurging every once in a while. I think my sanity depended on it. 

It wasn't until residency that I began spending more than I really should. First it was the wedding. Then vacations we wanted to take. That snowballed into moving expenses to Nashville. More vacations and of course a baby. Daycare. Add to that 7+ months of paying rent and mortgage when we couldn't find a tenant. And there you have it. How we ended up in more debt than we realized. 

Student loans debts were inevitable. The monthly payments for those in and of themselves are more than most people's mortgages. I'd have to say that some of the credit card debt was also inevitable. Some of it was probably irresponsible. But you know what? I don't regret going on vacations or traveling home for the holidays. In the end, we made memories, and spent time with family and friends and that is what life is about. 

So recently we sat down and really took a look at our finances. We've come up with a plan to pay off our credit card debts. We'll then work toward student loans, college funds, ect. I want to be responsible and get our debts paid off but at the same time I want to enjoy finally having some extra income that I've worked so hard for so many years to obtain. We need to save for a home and really need to buy a new car. We also need to save more for retirement. But I also want to buy a new pair of diamond earring since I lost one of the diamond solitaire earrings Michael got me for my 30th birthday. And maybe a really nice purse. And some shoes. And clothes for baby girl. Luckily I'm preggo and don't really want to buy clothes right now but eventually I want to buy jeans from somewhere other then Old Navy. See??? Financial planning is hard!! I need Dave Ramsey or Susan Orman to help me out!

Separation anxiety.

Someone has it bad. 

Facetiming from work may be a bad idea for now. :( 

It's been awhile

So probably no one reads this anymore but that's okay. It's 11:24pm, and heartburn is keeping me up while I'm at work on call. Since my last post we have announced our second pregnancy and found out that we are expecting a little baby girl. 

I'm almost 24 weeks along. We haven't bought a single thing for baby girl. I see so many cute little baby girl clothes but for some reason haven't picked anything up yet. 

Isaiah is currently in a mommy-only phase. His separation anxiety is getting pretty bad. He clings to me for dear life from the moment I pick him up from his crib in the morning until I put him to bed at night. He is now crying for a good 10 minutes or so after I leave his room at bedtime. Not the whiny whimpers he would sometimes do but full out "MOMMY!!" standing up in his crib cries. It sometimes breaks my heart but he has to get over this phase sooner or later. He is otherwise such a happy, sweet little guy. Insists on giving hugs to all of his teachers before leaving school. Wants to kiss his Papa before eating breakfast. Kisses the iPad when we FaceTime at work. Love that little guy!

Chatter box

At a few days shy of being a year and a half, Isaiah is quite the chatter box. Half the time we just nod and smile since he makes no sense but he does have a handful of words. I'm not sure how many of these a stranger would recognize but so far here is some of his vocabulary:

mama, papa, my-me (mine), dog, eat, more, please, car, flower, bird, wa-wa (water), uh oh, no, go, baby, apple (any red fruit), wa-why (watermelon), poo poo

He signs "more", "eat" "all done" and "brush teeth". 

Just he other day he showed me that monkeys say "ooo ooo" while touching his shoulders to make monkey motions. 

He know some of his body parts: hair, eyes, nose, mouth, teeth, tongue, ears, belly, sometimes feet. 

He gets terrified when he hears a train horn and clings and whines in my arms. 

This little guy is so silly. I just love him!